1. |
Soft Engine
03:54
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Rain drops tapping away at my bones and I creak
The house sways in time
For me to mind
Everything around me
I’m an engine
You pull me
Slowly
When words are worn down and the sounds that I need are visceral
You see now, I’m miserable
I’m an engine
You pull me
Slowly
Breathe into me and I’ll take the life out of you
But when it comes to it, I’ll let you do it
If you want to
I’m an engine
You pull me
Slowly
Out with a whimper, goin 90
On a backroad, I cannot see ahead of me
But you're so agreeable
I can taste the smoke of a thousand years
Aching on your skin
The riches you're used to surface again
I’ll break the stars against you, you’ve won
Fragmented, and dangerous, I’m outdone
When words are worn down and the sounds that I need are visceral
You see now, I’m miserable
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2. |
After Silver Leaves
04:37
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You watch me trail along
Wanting to be closer than logic allows
I look up to you
You put me down
Hiding at the neighbors
Shushing as our friends call our names
Closer than comfort
Wrapped in shade
You call me by her name
But I was here first
And I was your girl
You live in dark corners to drag me in
I am eighteen, I find it romantic
Needing support and secrets kept hidden
Feeling rebellious, feeling gigantic
You weren't a good person but moments were nice
Ignoring my conscience for a touching the night
Drive to the hospital
Trying to wake you
Dragged from property
Right, see you later
You called me by her name
But I was here first
And I was your girl
You called me by her name
But I was here first
When I was your girl
Your hand over mouth
Decipher the sounds push to make
Say you're better now
Ignoring lies, I’ll guess it’s safe
I don't see you around
Unless you're on me, pressed against my face
Say you're happy now
It’s not the same, I need some space
Sculptures come to life and someone asks me if I’m famous
I’m shifting actuality, you'll stay the same as
When grass is wet and August’s cold
Meet in the car and have you hold me
A moment so kind, the windows misting
You ask if you're mine and then you kiss me
I think I have to go
You called me by her name
But I was here first
And I was your girl
You called me by her name
But I was here first
When I was your girl
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3. |
Let Me Hate
03:30
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I had a dream about you last night
Painted pink and blue
With shaking hands I held your pieces
And I thanked God for you
I took your arm so gently, terrified
Of breaking from this scene
Your eyes were glass, you said you saw me
Paperwork and roses scattered, collapsing
The whole room laughed and morning came
I woke alone and I laid still and willed myself to sleep again
I gotta therapist to help me
Arrange the word again
In patterns built from something different
Than the mess I’m living in
She says give me one with feeling
And write down what it means
Can’t let me hate this world for taking you
But let’s me have my dreams
Let me hate
Hate it all
It can’t be changed
Let me hate
Let me hate
Til I’m ready and these dreams won’t feel as heavy when I wake
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4. |
Believe You Me
03:49
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You are aware, but you don't wanna talk about it
But you need to
Someday, somewhere
Lost time will stop hurting you and
You’ll need to care
Winter came and the phone calls stopped
The hills caved in and the rain held off
Hold tightly to the memories that haunt you
You walk beside me
And wax poetic about the night
It’s still and quiet
It’s everything you crave and I do not see
The sadness creeping in
Winter came and the phonecalls stopped
The hills caved in and the rain held off
Hold tightly to the memories that haunt you
You’re spring gone sour
And you’ll talk on your wheel for hours
About a song you can't place
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5. |
Supersolar
03:31
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Tearing my chest out
Figure about when my stars had died
Turning it over, heart supersolar
I’m terrified
Head split
Streetlights flicker as you passit
Full of stones and drowning in atonement
Undressed turned away to hide
Don’t feel you watching like you used to
But I won't ask you
Tearing my chest out
Figure about when my stars had died
Turning it over, heart supersolar
I’m terrified
Possessed
In a vortex of resounding grief
It’s hurting you to love me as much as I need
And do you feel to fear the fever burn
To sympathize with ruins pain in front of you
I’m not the flower you painted by the sea
You say we're friends but treat me like an enemy
Left sat in blame and guilt of the forgotten words you spoke to me
Tearing my chest out
Figure about when my stars had died
Turning it over, heart supersolar
I’m terrified
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6. |
Janeway
03:03
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My knuckles snap
A blood-grip cracks
The point ripped away
My monolith fixation’s
Turning black and blue and grey
The rain won't stop
I’ll turn around and let the sadness stretch me under
Say I’m strong tomorrow cos tonight I want the thunder
If I could drown myself
The king of someplace else
I’d run away to a greener planet
Chase the time I took for granted
The hardest hollow
Sugar sinking
Hum along to keep from thinking
An afterimage
So earth clicks out
And here I drift in a life of obligation
Everything I knew was solid
Now it exists on a different station
And if I slept all day
I know I’d float away
But when I wake there’s no escaping
Now you’ve gone my heart is breaking
The hardest hollow
Sugar sinking
Hold your pictures, count my breathing
It’s just an afterimage
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7. |
How the Light Felt
03:21
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The moon cannot be shifted
I know this as well as you
If I’m gifted
Maybe it’s something I could do
The sky is flooded
With twisted birds
The pattern holds no purpose
But it works
I catch myself shrinking
From an outside perspective
And ask how the light felt
Before this
I’ve seen flowers
Bent at ugly angles
Killing hours
On the floor
Wires tangled
I catch myself shrinking
From an outside perspective
And ask how the light felt
Before this
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8. |
Person of Interest
03:00
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When I was seventeen
Went into the woods to discover the dogwrappedinwire
A fire burned it's disguise away
Stayed buried for years now we can’t know the killers design
You’re so sweet
I can’t stand it
I can’t stand it
The sunshine meets
Where you plant it
An object of mystery
Tragedy, history, and I’m in love
Ten years pass
Drove you back to Kentucky to tell you the story
The trees are bound in tape
A federal investigation is now taking place
You’re so sweet
I can’t stand it
I can’t stand it
The sunshine meets
Where you plant it
An object of mystery
Tragedies, injuries, and I’m in love
When I was seventeen
Went into the woods to destroy my perception of self
My saddest memories
Are now filled with light now I have you to tell
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9. |
Morningstar
04:05
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Shooting stars in my arms
Heavy eyes, now the floor is slipping under me
I may be childish but when I cry why won’t you feel for me
Elliptical memory shifting til everything falls silent and still
But if you don’t care at all tell me who will
Growling heat, crumbling,telling me “listen please”
Swirling oil, kerosine, morning soil breaking loose and leaves
Freckled face, open space, killing moon, blowing smoke in my eyes
Call it a conversation
Call it goodbye
But if you don’t care at all tell me who will
If you don’t care at all tell me who will
If you don’t care at all tell me who will
If you don’t care at all tell me who will
Jealousy, sacrifice, not as nice
When I know better than what I am
Hold me close, let me go
Tell me yes, tell me no
Be the person I can’t stand
Pupils small, ten feet tall
Under your arm I’m turning
Say you cannot hurt me
You’re a gun
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10. |
Unbroken Thought
02:57
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Trudged in snow like phantoms finding solace in others
Picking at the stitches, you’re a graceless gunner
I’m caught on the wires and fall
As I hit the ground our eyes meet
Trudged in snow like phantoms finding solace in others
Picking at the stitches, you’re a graceless gunner
I’m caught on the wires and fall
As I hit the ground our eyes meet
Stay awhile
Stay awhile, I’ve been so lonely
Stay awhile
Stay awhile, I need your company
We used to walk in tandem on parking lot bumpers
Squeezed between the action, severed shadows of summer
You hold my hand to keep me balanced and
When our eyes meet
We used to walk in tandem on parking lot bumpers
Squeezed between the action, severed shadows of summer
You hold my hand to keep me balanced and
When our eyes meet
Stay awhile
Stay awhile, I’ve been so lonely
Stay awhile
Stay awhile, I need your company
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